I love to sing, actually I can carry a tune pretty well. Honestly I can sing very well. For many years I have been asked to do special music for events, from church services and weddings to women's meetings, conferences and more. It's been a joy to use this gift from God to minister to people.
Like many things in life I've gone through changes, lots of changes. One change was in my singing. My voice has not changed, I can still sing and sing well, but my call by God to sing has changed. There has been no doubt in my mind for several years now that God has not wanted me to use my voice the way I used to. I'm fine with that.
The thing that has been tough for me is sitting in church singing the hymns and worship music. People who hear me will ask why I don't sing specials, why am I not in the choir. Most don't understand that for now God has called me to be on the sideline with my voice.
One Sunday in particular at church my pastor's wife was chatting with me and she poignantly asked me why I was not singing in the choir and doing specials. I told her that for now God does not want me to. When He tells me to, I will. She agreed that it was a good reason.
Our Pastor has a habit of asking from the pulpit on Sunday evenings if anyone has a special. That night he asked me by name.
"Lois, do you have a special for us?"
I shook my head and then I heard his wife say, "She said when God tells her too, she will!"
The Pastor said that he hoped that would be soon and went on with the service. It was such a comfort to have a pastor who understood what I was going through.
After announcements and a few specials from other talented people in our church, the Pastor said, "I want all of you to listen to something very, very important." He paused for a few dramatic seconds.
He wrapped his hands around the pulpit microphone and leaned in to it and said in as deep a voice as he could muster, "Lois! This is God! You need to sing now!"
The whole church erupted in laughter!
It was one of the funniest things at our church ever. I'm still not being led to sing, but it was a joy to see God use my "not" singing to bring laughter and a blessing to my church family in a unique way.